ItS bEen A WhilE: UPDATE

Well... Instead of blogging about my life I decided to take break and live it a little bit. I went to Aruba and had a wonderful romantic getaway and they july 8, 2009 we got hitched in yonkers city hall. Carrie of me isn't it? haha. Alot has changed. But is marriage really everything its caught up to be? its all the same as before but harder. Two days after our marriage shit floated and some untold truths came out. Im still recovering. They should make it a federal law to require lie detector test before couples decide to wed. I have nothing to hide. My passwords are out in the open. My cell phone is left on the table and I'm not afraid to walk away. god..how pathetic are men.. why are they "strong" when they shouldn't be and refrain from crying and "weak" when they shouldn't be. You would think you know someone.. But, does anyone really really really know someone? People can live their life and let their life be lie. I feel fooled. And we are working on our newlywedded marriage already. i just pray some people would wake up and realize relationships are about sacrafice and the unconditional love you give without being selfish. Its hard to rebuild trust when the other half wont lay down the bricks. I love my husband and know he loves me too. But like other men, he is one of them. And like other women, so am I. i knew we were meant to be and knew we weren't going to be perfect. BUT GIVE ME A BREAK. im a good woman. too good. too too too good. and here i am now. Dry.