A POINT OF REALIZATION

WHEN DO YOU STOP AND REALIZE THAT SO MUCH TIME HAS PASSED YOU BY AND YOU HAVE NOT COMPLETED THE GOALS THAT WERE SET TO BE REACHED? AS I HAVE BEEN PACKING UP MY LIFE THESE PASSED FEW DAYS, (WE ARE MOVING INTO OUR NEW HOME!! YAY!) I HAVE FOUND SO MANY "ARTIFACTS" THAT DESCRIBED ME. OR SHOULD I SAY , " THE OLD ME." - WHEN THEY USED TO CALL ME TINA.

I FOUND OLD POEMS- FROM A POINT IN A MY LIFE WHEN MY EMOTIONS WERE SO SIMPLE SO THOUGHTS WERE EASILY PROCESSED.

I FOUND SKETCHES, PAINTINGS, AND DESIGNS- FROM A TIME IN MY LIFE WHERE I WAS SO CLEVERLY CREATIVE AND THE WORLD WAS AT MY FINGERTIPS FOR THE TAKING.

I FOUND PHOTOS OF MYSELF- I LOOKED SO YOUNG AND WAS SO NAIVE... I TRUSTED EVERYTHING ANYONE EVER SAID AND ALWAYS GAVE PEOPLE THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT. I BELIEVED IN KINDNESS AND GOOD HEARTEDNESS WAS IN EVERY SOUL. OH DID I PROVE MYSELF WRONG AS I GREW OLDER.

HERE I AM PRETENDING I FOUND MEMORIES OF MY PASSED AS IF THAT PART OF MY LIFE WERE DEAD. I KNOW MY LIFE HAS DRASTICALLY CHANGED. FOR THE BETTER IN MOST ASPECTS! BUT I SHOULD HAVE NEVER GIVEN UP ON THE REAL ME. THE TRUTH IS I AM NOT ONLY A MOTHER OR SOMEONE'S WIFE. I HAVE A PERSONALITY. I HAVE TALENTS. I HAVE MY OWN MIND AND OPINIONS. ALL I REALLY WANT IS TO BE ABLE TO EXPRESS THEM PROPERLY. I WANT TO BE FUN AGAIN AND BE CAREFREE FOR A DAY.