I should never plan anything ever again.

It just so happens that the greatest things to ever happen to me were because they were unplanned. Anything I had ever planned just went completely wrong... I planned my after prom in H.S. THAT WAS A MESS! I spent months planning what college to go to, one I could afford and fit the lifestyle I wanted to live. THAT WAS A MESS! I picked a major. THAT WAS A MESS! Of course, when I decided what I wanted to do with my life= education= I could not transfer without losing credits. So I changed my major to MARKETING. It was AIGHT at first. then I grew to like it. I have a creative mind & always felt like my mind should be matched with something that would challenge it. The point is...Changing my major to Marketing...brought about many unexpected things.. Things I were afraid of at first & then turned out to be amazing.
The ripple effect was me leaving to greece for almost a month, coming home and completely changing my college schedule to night school just so I would have a different schedule from my boyfriend at the time. My reason for it? I wanted to meet knew people, have my own friends, get to know myself better. Basically, I wanted to have my own life. I guess what I didn't realize soon enough was that I wanted a life without him in it - I was just too blinded to see it. It was a confusing stage in my life that led me to make real life choices for the first time. THANK GOD it paid off!.

My last minute unexpected trip to Greece made me realize who I am & who I was dealing with at the time. My unexpected change of schedule guided me to meeting the man of my dreams in my spanish class. Who, by the way, I completely thought was not made for me at the time. He was supposed to be my friend & was someone I could talk to about anything. He gave me comfort, confidence, strength, & told me the truth even if it hurt. Something I really needed to overcome challenge: ESCAPE FOR MY LIFE. But damn...he swept me off my feet in the process- -too quick to even notice. He showed me how a woman like me should be treated. I felt like I was a Queen & he never stopped making me feel that way.

I realized whatever I had with my x was habitual, not love. Something familiar & just there because it was. BECAUSE of that, I was in denial. I was not happy. I only knew that it had been a very long time since a TRUE smile was on my face...and only one man brought it out...Everytime I saw him. At first I was worried this outstanding man I met was too much for me to handle...but something hit me & told me I would regret it for the rest of my life if I did not put my guard down & leap into him arms. So I DID. I knew I could trust him with anything & that he would never hurt me or lie to me by the way he looked into my eyes. Not too many women can actually say that about their men. Even married women (I know many).

Our love has been a roller coaster and in over a year or so that we have been together I never felt that anyone else could know me better. We have had many tough times, like my unexpected pregnancy then miscarriage, stress from school & work..etc... strange enough... it only made us closer and realize what we really want from our relationship. He has been the one to hold me up and keep me facing forward. He truly is my big strong soldier & would fight for me & with me through it all.

So basically... everything that has gone absolutely right in my life is because I did not plan it. I am just going where my life takes me right now because where it took me so far is purely Bliss. INTO HIS ARMS.